Thursday, April 24, 2008

Sometimes life is hard...

I've debated about doing this a few ways... but the truth is, when you are this far removed, geographically speaking, from most of your loved ones, this is the easiest way to do it. And so I'm really sorry to those of you who are thinking, hey, shouldn't I be getting a personal call with this info? It's true, you should be. Normally I would see a lot of you in person and be able to tell you then, but I just haven't been in the mood to explain the situation over the phone multiple times...
Anyways, I was so looking forward to sharing good news with you soon, and now I have to do otherwise. This past week I've had a miscarriage. I should have been about 7 weeks along. It has been a pretty mild process physically speaking, and I am very thankful for that. I completely attribute that to the fact that I've been covered in prayer by my awesome Bible study ladies (and a couple others). As most of you know, this is my third one, and while it is emotionally draining to go through again, it's also a little easier when you know what's going on and know what to expect from experience.
After the initial disappointment has faded a little, we've found ourselves doing what I imagine many of you who have gone through this have done... you think of the "positives"-- the things that you now get to do, which in fact pale in comparison to having a new life growing inside you-- things which nonetheless perk you up a teeny bit, under the circumstances.
Here's the things we've come up with... we get to go camping at Thanksgiving now (this is the best one for us, as our due date in early December would have prevented a trip home in late November)... we can try to come home to CA sooner... I get to eat fried eggs... I don't have to take progesterone 3 times a day anymore... and well, that's about it. I'd give these all up in a heartbeat for the alternative, but they do help a little in consoling us. And yes there are other food benefits to not being pregnant, we just happened to have breakfast for dinner yesterday and I was happy to have runny yolks. :)
I have also felt newly thankful for Gigi this week. It's quite discouraging to think of 3 out of 4 pregnancies ending like this, but Gianna is proof that my body can do it, in God's timing. I know that He has a perfect plan for our family, and I just pray that He allows us to have more babies. And that's my prayer request for our family! So if you think of us, please toss up a prayer sometime asking God to bless us again in the near future! We'll be sure to let you know when it happens.

Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD,
The fruit of the womb is a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,
So are the children of one’s youth.
Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them
Psalm 127:3-5

7 comments:

myste said...

sweetie i'm so sorry.

Giancarlo & Emily said...

know that you (and your family) are always in our thoughts and prayers... god works in mysterious ways.

Emmyshell said...

We are praying for you and David and know that the Lord has an awesome plan to use your testimony to minister to others - another praise point.

Judy said...

I'm so sorry Nicole...of course you and David and Gigi are in my prayers. God is good all the time, but it is at times like this that we just don't understand. May He bless you richly in the days ahead! xoxox Judy

Soderin Family said...

Nicole,
I am so sorry. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please call me when you have a chance.

Hugs,

Andrea

Leanne said...

Oh, girl...I can't think of words to say because really, it just plain stinks when you want something so bad, and it seems like a good thing, so why does the Lord not let it happen? I am blessed to hear of your strong reliance upon Him and believing that he has the best,best,best plan for you.

Dave said...

Oh we are so sorry you guys! We will definitely be praying for you two. Nicole I do have a friend that had two miscarriages after their first baby and her professor of homeopathic medicine recommended she take black cohosh as a supplement and she was pregnant in no time and kept the baby until full term. I know your not opposed to natural alternative ways so I thought I would pass the info on...Jenny